A Catered Affair involving African Women.....

Roe Green.... I have a new respect for that name, and the person. This past weekend, the seniors had to sing our showcase for Roe Green at the Porthouse Theatre Preview Party..... But, not one of us is performing there this summer... so its kindof contradictory. Well anyway, Roe lives in a gated golf course community. The houses were GORGEOUS!! They looked exactly how you would picture a house in a gated community would look. The only downfall is they are all the same. Yeah, your neighbor might have a bigger house than you, but I'm sure the layout inside is similar. I was thinking that Roe would live in a huge house, but its really not as big as I thought. In the end, the size didnt matter. The content of her house was breathtaking. I walked in to various african art that she has had sent to her from different countries in Africa. She's been there six times, and she made it very clear to me that there was nothing more beautiful to her than an African Woman. (hmm) I would say that she has more than half a milliion dollars worth of just African Art. There was much, much more art from other places as well, But the woman LOVES Africa the most. Even though the night was stressful, I'm glad I got to talk with her and really get to know her, and form my own opinion about her, and not the Theatre and Dance dept.'s opinion. Personally, I think she is amazing, and I wish I would have gotten to know her better.

Now, the party... WHAT A MESS!!! I dont think I have been so scared to say the wrong thing, or drop a tray, or say the wrong thing... in all of my life. As a part of my showcase class, we had to "help" out with the party by bartending, valeting, and serving. I was a server, and let me tell you, WHAT AN EXPERIENCE!! All of the Porthouse patrons are very intimidating, and can be quite rude at times. It's not like I really wanted to be serving them anyway. We were there for the entertainment! I think that what made it so awkward was the fact that I would have to walk up to them and interrupt their conversations to ask if they wanted one of the mini Rubens from my tray. And it wouldnt have been so bad, if they werent so snobby about me asking. And I tried to be really nice and considerate. It amazes me that people can be so uppity. There were some nicer people though. So I tried to gravitate toward them most of the night!

stay tuned..

Wednesday slump......

So... I'm sick. This started Sunday, with nausea, and a very sore throat; turned into chills and an even sorer throat.... so I went to the health center Monday, where they told me I was running a 100.6 fever and then proceeded to strep test and blood test me for mono.... Really? is this really my life? Like seriously, the busiest time of the f-ing semester and I get really sick. My blood test results aren't in yet.. or maybe they are and the health center (being that they are AWFUL) just hasn't called me to give me the good or bad news. I guess I should be grateful that my teachers understand. I felt bad missing class this week, since I've already missed well over the amount I'm allowed to miss in a semester.

Of course I haven't missed work. I'm here now. Dying. But I need the money so a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do... It's quiet here, so its not like its taxing or anything. Its a bit much for me to be getting up and down to get package for students, but I haven't had too many this evening. I'm so not looking forward to Jimmy Johns tomorrow night. And knowing Jim, I'll ask him if I can leave early and he'll say yes.. but I'll still end up closing. When will the lies stop??

**RANT** Why do people feel the need to stand me up, tell me they will be somewhere I ask them to and not show up, break promises, or not return my phone calls when I need to talk to them? Do I really deserve that? What have I done? I try to be a good friend, and be there when they absolutely need me to be, if someone needs advice I try to give them the most neutral solution possible... But JESU CRISTO!! CAN SOMEONE PLEASE FOR ONCE JUST DO WHAT THE FUCK THEY TELL ME THEY ARE GOING TO DO?????.. whew... had to get that out.

For the first time in a long time, I listened to India Arie's entire album, Acoustic Soul.. It was such a breath of fresh air. Her voice and the way she feels about music and life and love just make me feel like everything is right in the world. If there is anyone I aspire to be like as an artist, it's her. (and maybe Beyonce.... but that's the lala fierce talking inside of me) I mean the way her voice fits so perfectly over her acoustic guitar gives me chills. Its smooth, yet very sultry, but still innocent. Every song she sings has a message and they are all positive... If you don't know about India, you need to get in. Cuz she's the business.

Roommates are having a party this weekend... And, I just don't want to be there. Thank God I'm working hehe. The last party we had was just too much. Drunk Theatre people in a very confined space can get very melodramatic. People making out with.... ew. Portraits coming up missing. Drunkards throwing up in the bathroom. Like I said, too much but, clearly, that would be happening at any party. And I'm also glad I don't have rehearsal this weekend. Meaning, I can rest ALL DAY Saturday which is what I need to do.

stay tuned.

Is it really April 10th??? Already???

Hello All!!!

Oh my my my has it been a LOONGG time since my last post.. and Soo much has happened. Sorry for being so negligent, but my life..... oh, life..... It's a never ending television drama. Showcase has happened, Ace's move has happened as well as mine (and boy do I have A LOT to say about that), my hair is really growing and its so healthy, and it is officially 5 weeks tomorrow until I graduate... Oh how time flies! So, Let us begin the recap, shall we?

Showcase: hmm... What can I say about showcase??? Going to New York and really being in the city for a week, with no plans, and more than enough time to explore the city and scope out neighborhoods and possible job was a great experience... And I will admit, the actually showcase performance was fun, it was nice to see all the alums and such and it was so exhilarating to perform at the York Theatre. But I cant help but think I should have graduated in December.... Dont get me wrong, I LOVE theatre, but I'm very particular about what musicals I want to be in. My focus nowadays is more on acting. And of course the one musical that I would audition for (The Wiz) was having their open call the day of showcase.. so there was just no way I could have gone. And Dreamgirls is having their open call tomorrow which sucks because I am in OHIO!. And the whole showcase rehearsal experience was awful. As an artist, I think that I should always be prepared, even if my director isn't. But I don't think the group as a whole thinks that way. Many were upset about the fact that we would run the show once and then take notes and go home. I mean, I was upset as well, only because I didn't get to apply the notes immediately after they were given. I realize that Terri (my director) was busy with whatever else was going on in her life. But if this was as important as she said it was in the beginning, I think that we would have taken it a lot more seriously. But when my director shows up late, and then talks about family issues for ten minutes, and THEN we maybe run the show, and leave without running it again, its hard to take her seriously. I had such high expectations for showcase, and especially for the process, and I was severely let down. It changed my perspective about a lot of things and it really opened my eyes to who matters and who doesn't. Needless to say, nothing came of showcase... no callbacks, no calls, no auditions.... nothing. But maybe 350 dollars spent in the city for a week. If I could do it all over again, I wouldn't.

The Move: Upon returning from New York, the apartment I was living in with my girlfriend was completely empty, the car packed, and my stuff moved over to my new location. I got back on a Thursday, and we were gone by Saturday. Crazy, huh? At the time, I didn't have a problem with Ace leaving because driving down to Atlanta with her made me feel as though I was leaving as well.. Until Friday came, and I had to come back to Ohio. While in ATL, we got tattoos. I got a star on the left side of my lower stomach and she got one on the right. It was her first tattoo so she was so nervous. It was soo cute. Even though I was sad she moved there, I was really at peace with it, because I love her cousin Mike (who she is staying with) and I really think that he is going to have a really good influence on her, unlike her friends in Ohio, who are just TOO DARK to speak of. My living arrangement on the other hand, is quite stressful.. I moved in with my friends Kelly, Carson, and Denise... and I love them all. But its just too much sometimes. Oh! and did I mention we also have a cat and a dog?? (ponder that for a second) so things are kinda crazy there. Also, some times I don't think they realize that just because I moved in that my schedule changed. I'm still as unavailable as I was before.. I don't think that they really believed me half the time when I would tell them that I had to work, or I had a meeting, or that I was sleeping because I had to work. And that I was just making excuses to not hang out... But witnessing my life first hand, I think they are starting to get it. I am somewhat situated now. I have a few clothes that I don't have a drawer to put them in, so I need to figure that out. But at least I have my things arranged in a way that is "comfortable" for the next 5 weeks.

Hair: I LOVE my hair! I mean, if there is anything that makes me happier than Ace and Ave, its my hair. I feel so unique, and original and I love the way it looks and feels. I cant wait until it grows more and I can start styling it in different ways. I think that going natural is the best thing I could have done. So glad I bought those shears lol! April 15th will mark my 2 month anniversary since I BC'ed and there is so much growth! I say by the end of July, I will have a huge fro and I cant wait! I'm thinking about making my own leave in conditioner. And it might be strictly made of different organic oils. I've learned that my hair responds very well to oil, especially EV olive oil. I think that might be the reason its grown so quickly. Maybe in the near future I'll make a post strictly with pictures so you can see my progress.

Graduation: It couldn't come any sooner... I'm so ready to get out of Kent. So much so, that the car(s) will be packed the Friday night before graduation and right after the ceremony I'm out!! I just cant wait. Not to say that I hate Kent. I appreciate Kent, and all it has taught me. But this chapter is ready to close and I just don't know if I want/need to reopen it, ever again! lol I will miss a lot of people though. But not to the point of sadness. If I'm meant to meet up with them later on in life, then fine. If not, it was nice know them. Now, the scary thing about graduating, is that I'm going back to Cincinnati for a little while before I make my move to New York. And I'm going to need a job... and a well paying one, because I need to make enough money to get me into the city. Irregardless, I'm leaving by the end of August. And if that means I only have 500 in my pocket... whatever, I will make it work.

~~Looking to the Future~~

I have soo much to do! And like 5 weeks to do it! Well, kinda. I need to start figuring out a summer job, do my exit loan counseling, send out graduation announcements, plan various events for organizations that I'm in.... whew! It's a bit much.. But, nothing I cant handle. I'm in a show right now called Ubu Roi and its clearly an absurdest play. I mean, the shit I do in this play is just not something you would see in conventional theatre. But, I love it, and I love my director, and I'm so happy I get to work with most of my friends on this. It's a great ending to college really. The show opens April 30th and is part of Fringe Fest that we have for a week here. But its at the end of the week because it is the Student Theatre Festival piece, which is basically for focal point of Fringe Fest.
I'm thinking about coloring my hair. Nothing permanent. Just a rinse. To see if I like it or not. I want to go a little lighter since its spring. Like a cinnamon brown, or hazelnut. Any ideas? I'll probably do it some time next week. But, I always say I'm going to do something and then I get to busy or I forget. We shall see.

stay tuned.